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Is Anyone Real
02:29
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If Mother Nature swallows us whole
Would you blame her? No.
She has reached out to hold our hand
And what have we done?
We’ve only let go
Take a photo
Emotional solo
Wringing out the feel
Add a soundtrack
Make it nostalgic
Is anybody real?
Is anyone real?
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2. |
Kids
03:34
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I’m hearing them talk
I don’t understand it
I’m holding myself back from having a total fit
Is that how you honor another human being
What if they were still living
What if they were still breathing
Why am I seeing them die
I am still wondering why
Why did I keep a straight face
Then why did I go home and cry
The kids are alright
They’re alright
So let them ride on their bikes
When we’re young
We don’t give a shit about our outsides
Then we grow up and we lose our minds
What I can do now
Is walk away
When I was younger
I’d force myself to stay
And now my ears
They bleed so heavy
And you can stand there and watch
‘Cause my feet are steady
Why am I seeing them die
I am still wondering why
Why did I keep a straight face
Then why did I go home and cry
The kids are alright
They’re alright
So let them ride on their bikes
When we’re young
We don’t give a shit about our outsides
Then we grow up and we lose our minds
I’m a stone inside
Take me outside so I can cry
I’m all dried up it’s time
Push my head so I can see the sky
Yeah today I really tried
Opened up to see the other side
But I feel weird inside
Yeah I still feel weird inside
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3. |
The Sweats
03:21
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I pace around the room and pause to stare at all my shit
I tried for hours to put away all of it
I wonder how it all would look if it were lit
It’d be much easier to set fire to it
Well time for me to sleep so I can grind up on my teeth
And so I can sweat all up inside my sheets
And so I can have all of the worst kinds of dreams
My friends, they are all beautiful and anxious all the time
And I’m so happy that I can call them mine
They slap me ‘round when I am down to change my mind
We can’t rewind
Well time for me to sleep so I can grind up on my teeth
And so I can sweat all up inside my sheets
And so I can have all of the worst kinds of dreams
I feel the heavy weight and tingle rushing over me
Did anyone see my internal desperate plea
I go outside, be with the sky to make it right
A gentle breeze behind the knees sets me in flight
Well time for me to sleep so I can grind up on my teeth
And so I can sweat all up inside my sheets
And so I can have all of the worst kinds of dreams
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4. |
Freaking Me Out
02:41
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My friends gave up on me ‘cause I’m never around
We use our thumbs instead of making real sounds
Sitting at my desk waiting for someone to save me
We could all create an emergency
Everyone is freaking me out
Everyone is tryin’ to run me off of the road
Floor it ‘till I make it back home
Workin’ on my moves so I can be with the crows
Loyal as we mob all our foes
Everyone is freaking me out
It’s time that we all fall into our parts
Never mind our empty hearts
Everyone is freaking me out
Oh my god
Everybody’s freaking me
Freaking me out
Freaking me out
Freaking me out
Yeah yeah yeah!
Pick one thing and make it last
So you can brand yourself into the past
You’d better adhere to something fast
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5. |
My Arms
03:24
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Move along
They say it ain’t long
Something’s wrong
Blink my eyes and now you’re gone
These are my legs
A to B pegs
These are my arms
Up to down
Open wide
Roll around blurry eyes
Cue the cry
Nothing’s left
The well’s run dry
These are my legs
A to B pegs
These are my arms
Up to down
To down
These are my arms
Up to down
Something’s wrong
These are my arms
Up to down
Something’s wrong
Now you’re gone
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6. |
Skin
03:13
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I skin myself out of bed
I feel my body has disconnected from my head
Another day bleeding eyes
None of my friends told me that this is what I have inside
Listening to a segment where they’re telling me to “just be myself”
I realized that all my friends, they only buy me books about self-help
Long drives and another day
Held myself back just enough for me to not walk away
And by the skin of my teeth
I didn’t blindfold myself and walk out into the street
Listening to a segment where they’re telling me to “just be myself”
I realized that all my friends, they only buy me books about self-help
Pause and play please go away
This screen just makes my eyes go to hell
Stare and wave my hands at you
I’ve got to beg to play show and tell
But I daydream
About someone running over me
What would my last thought be
Something about Kill Bill 3
Wooooooooooo!
Listening to a segment where they’re telling me to “just be myself”
I realized that all my friends, they only buy me books about self-help
Pause and play please go away
This screen just makes my eyes go to hell
Stare and wave my hands at you
I’ve got to beg to play show and tell
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7. |
Bookends
03:24
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There you are in the center
I’ve been orbiting round
Lately you’ve been moving so fast
Frame by frame while I’m sitting down
Down
It’s always been complicated
Nothing is a straight line
The creases I see in the corners
Are the only way that I can tell time
Time
I know we’ll say goodbye
I know we’ll say goodbye
I know we’ll say goodbye
I know we’ll say goodbye
Everything keeps moving forward
We all know that’s the deal
Can’t tell when things are supportive
Or a cut to the Achilles’ heel
Heel
Think I forgot to consider
That I don’t believe in time
Why does it have to be bookends
Or leaving it all behind
Behind
This is not goodbye
This is not goodbye
This is not goodbye
So please wipe your eye
I pedal my bike
Like I’m going to space
And I’d probably laugh hard
If I could just see my face
And I think about tragedies
Right before bed
Holding hands with the memories
Inside my head
And just when I think
It’s already collapsed
It’s like someone juiced up
A brand new relapse
And could someone please stop by
To tell me I’m wrong
So that I could sleep tight tonight
Sweet dreams so long!
Do we have to say goodbye
I don’t want to say goodbye
Let’s not say goodbye
I know it’s not goodbye
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8. |
Face
04:37
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Something’s in my head
It’s got me wanting to run
People say not to participate if it isn’t fun
But here we are
Tapping feet
Day after day
And I quickly feel enthusiasm fading away
Who’s gonna pull me out
Who’s gonna show me my face
You know the one I mean
You know the one I mean
What’s wrong with me
What’s wrong with me
I don’t even notice
The art that’s on the wall
And picking at my fingers
It doesn’t help at all
And now they bleed
What’s wrong with me
Why do you look at me
Like I know what to do
It’s been a thousand years
And we’re all still confused
Playing hooky
Looky looky
Just to be with my friends
Maybe today I’ll salivate and stop playing pretend
Who’s gonna pull me out
Who’s gonna show me my face
You know the one I mean
You know the one I mean
What’s wrong with me
What’s wrong with me
Today I rode my bike
It felt so fuckin’ free
No one in front
Or behind me
Just a breeze
What a tease
The people on the street
Are louder than the birds
Aimlessly flailing
‘Cause everyone’s unsure
We’re all impure
But what’s the cure
I don’t even notice
The art that’s on the wall
And picking at my fingers
Well it doesn’t help at all
And now they bleed
What’s wrong with me
Who’s gonna pull me out
Who’s gonna show me my face
You know the one I mean
You know the one I mean
What’s wrong with me
What’s wrong with me
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9. |
Grown-Ups
03:52
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There was a time
When we could unwind
We had each other’s backs
These days we’re drowning
I swear it’s this town
And everything it lacks
Don’t you want your ears to be sailing
Doesn’t it feel like we’re failing
Is there time to repair and
It makes me a little bit scared
Now that we’re grown
It all feels more alone
And I talk to myself
Will it all line back up
Or is tragedy stuck
I know what I felt
Don’t you want your ears to be sailing
Doesn’t it feel like we’re failing
Wish it could all be repaired and
I’m sorry that I had to bail
How does it play out
It’s all inside out
I’m protecting myself
You’ve got your life
It’s so different than mine
Compromise it would help
Don’t you want your ears to be sailing
Doesn’t it feel like we’re failing
Wish it could all be repaired and
It makes me a little bit scared
It makes me a little bit scared
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10. |
Dead and Swollen
03:48
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I look straight ahead
You see that my eyes are swollen and dead
I heard what you said
You’re stuck inside your own little head
I’m wondering if I can lead this life
I’m wondering if it’s all just the hype
I know that I’ve got to make it mine
I’m feeling the closing in of the time
I don’t know it all
But I consider myself to have a little respect
I wouldn’t sit right near you
And make all those jokes about having sex
I’m wondering if I can lead this life
I’m wondering if it’s all just the hype
I know that I’ve got to make it mine
I’m feeling the closing in of the time
I guess I am strange
Thinking I could sit alone on this day
Reading books about ghosts
Right next to a group of big egos
I’m wondering if I can lead this life
I’m wondering if it’s all just the hype
I know that I’ve got to make it mine
I’m feeling the closing in of the time
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pencildive Brooklyn, New York
Pencildive is a NYC-based rock band led by songwriter/guitarist Gina De Nardo. The sound ranges from tender to explosive, with punchy drums and gritty guitar interwoven with brooding melodies and live noise experiments. De Nardo's haunting vocals about lost love and sleepless nights slice through the trio's wild, electric arrangements in a frenzy of gloomy punk. ... more
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